"I will make sure to keep my distance/ Say I love you when you're not listening/ And how long can we keep this up, up, up?"(Distance/Christina Perri)
She pondered that every day. But maybe he didn't.
She just wanted him to hold her.

Things I'll Never Say

A list of things I'll never say.

Who am I?

I’m full of things I’ll never say.

I’m lonely when surrounded with friends.

I trust nobody and no one.

I don’t love. I only fear. And I seek love in every corner.

Do I believe in god? Truly?

I’m too rational, yet I present myself as irrational. I guess because I’m so rational it’s easy for me to let go- it’s such a thin line for me. Every move I make is cold and calculated, but I never think of consequences. I never expect what happens to me.

I hate myself and most of all the fact that I can’t resist temptation.

I feel that I’m not good enough in anything.

Why?

I wish you could see how lonely I truly am. How insecure.

I learned how to fight like this from you two. And you fight so much…

I don’t UNDERSTAND.

I need to the bathroom.

It’s a thrill, to not get caught in a lie.

To cheat.

Music.

FUCK ALL OF YOU!

Do you even know me?

Shit fuck damn fuck shit damn damn shit fuck.

I’m nobody’s anything.

 Stop complimenting me! I don’t deserve it!

I’m ugly. I’m dumb. I’ve got no talent.

I HATE YOU!

Let me go!

You are so STUPID! How can you BE so freaking dumb??? When will you see?

Do I?

Do I ever smile?

Do I ever laugh?

STOP IT!

Stop it! I just want to cry…

Cry, baby, cry…

I love you.

I love you too.