When you find yourself alone, eventually, you will come to me and ask me, WHY.
I wish I had an answer for you.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Nightmares.

Sometimes I get nightmares.
I never wake up screaming or shaking. I'm just suddenly awake, the memory of last night's images echoing in my head.
My subconscious can be very creative.
And mean.
I didn't know those kind of thoughts exist in me!
As funny as it is, the dream took place in my current school but had many students from my old one. I'm guessing that's from seeing three girls from that school yesterday afternoon-evening. There were also girls from this school though.
This is the first time I have this nightmare. Some parts of are repetitive and some are just one-time mares. And they're all downright terrifying.
In one part of the dream, I'm trying to find the library but know I'm looking in the wrong place. I end up meeting the vampire Voldemort, eating a feast of dead meat near the science labs- or at least where they're supposed to be, as I never actually looked at them. I tried to ask for directions for the library, but all Voldemort did was growl and try to bite me. I floated down and ran like hell- straight into a gym class somewhere I've never seen before. Nobody was there yet, and I was sitting down. A girl from this class came in and insisted on teaching me a dance. When I fell down gracefully my gym teacher came in and told us, "very nice, we'll be working on a dance for that song as well." The room started filling up. I don't remember much, just that when I got out I had to go to find the library. So harry potter dispatched Ron and Hermione and headed up the tower- just to meet Voldemort again. He was almost finished with the feast and was red- covered with animal blood. His blue skin was like a Native American's now. I floated up to him again and he smiled in the utmost creepy way and leaned forward to bite me.
He couldn't actually get to me. That was the scariest part. He was holding bones of some animal in his hand and he couldn't get to me without finishing his meal. I knew it, but when he returned to his meal, I was still terrified.
I ran and stumbled, waking up calmly.